Today is the Summer Solstice.
It marks the completion of a year-long elemental working I have been undertaking, having proceeded through the eight points of the octogram. And it marks a good point to start another major project. If I want to.
I had a few options. One is to continue with my elemental working, and take it to the next level: visionary work with the elemental masters. (This gets into some pretty complex stuff with the magical system I work with and have discussed briefly before.)I would essentially work build up to a major working every month and a half. Given that this would involve completely adjusting my internal elemental makeup, it could have a pretty profound impact upon me. And frankly, I’m not sure to what end I would pursue this. What do I do with that?
I’ve also considered biting the bullet and going for the whole Knowledge and Conversation with the Holy Guardian Angel thing. It’s almost a sore spot that I haven’t contacted my HGA yet, and I may give it a shot. As part of this working, I would construct new elemental weapons according to Golden Dawn specifications, create a lotus wand, and build up a daily practice that would culminate in the Liber Samekh working (or something close).
But to what end? What do I do with that?
I’ve been working on that life path thinger and integrating a more developed devotional practice, including Latin ritual. (It’s been brought up that I speak church Latin. Rosetta Stone can help, I suppose.) I could do some intensive ego magic and innerwork, assess and redevelop my skills, and set out bravely on a new path. Doing so could potentially involve some extensive personality restructuring, which in turn may have a major impact on all of my personal and professional relationships. All of my goals could change. Would I want that?
Frater Barrabbas posted a blog post that got me thinking.
Magicians often boast about their magical prowess, citing their accomplishments like some kind of credible list of awards or laudatory plaudits. Only other magicians can recognize those accomplishments as something to be held in awe or snickered at on the sly. Whether those accomplishments represent degrees achieved or won in some esoteric or magical order or that they represent some kind of personal achievement, like successfully invoking one’s Holy Guardian Angel, all of these accomplishments are subjective at best and potentially worthless regarding one’s actual spiritual level of being. There is something more to the effort of spiritual evolution than magical achievements or initiatory grades, but it is often overlooked in the hustle for apparent greatness.As I have said previously, I have met individuals who have claimed lofty titles and presented burnished lists of achievements, only for them to be shown as being completely and utterly incompetent in all other areas of life. This is the difference between what Jason Miller has called stage or state and it represents the fact that all of us live at the lowest common denominator of our day-to-day spiritual foundation.If we have achieved great things from a magical perspective, yet our material and/or social lives are needy and impoverished, then we have a long way to go before we will achieve any kind of enlightenment. Just because we spent six months living in our parent’s basement and in that hallowed domain performed the Abramelin working doesn’t mean that we are to be treated as some kind of walking Ipsissimus. Whatever we achieve in our magical workings certainly does have some impact on who we are and what our spiritual foundation is like. It is also possible that someone could undergo many powerful initiatory ordeals and still be quite inadequate as a fully developed human being; where the most needed and pressing issues kicking around in that one’s personality are ignored or just given lip-service.Therefore, it should be obvious that there are two kinds of ordeals; one that is the greater ordeal (that everyone likes to talk about) and the lesser ordeal, which often gets ignored. The lesser ordeals represent the continuous process of self-examination, objective judgement, and putting into practice methods and techniques to bring the self to a higher level of being. The lesser ordeal represents the real work, set into motion by the visionary experiences of the greater ordeals. Without the lesser ordeals, the greater ordeals become, over time, meaningless and ineffective.